Tuesday, December 12, 2006

wow
what a great way of describing things haha, mostly life in general. Have u ever talked to someone that you haven't talked to in a long time. You notice how they talk, you notice how they say yea the same way they did 4 months ago and you remember when they started saying it like that. Its amazing how many emotions a single conversation can bring up. It can bring up memories of laughter, of pain, of sorrow, of regret. It can bring up a history you have with that person or it can bring up the history you wish you had with that person. Sometimes you cant control who goes out of your life, although you can control who comes into your life and that brings me to my next subject. Friends, there great but you really need to monitor which ones you bring in your life. Are you bringing in friends that will hurt you, manipulate you, or friends that will love you and cherish you. Even if they do love and cherish you with all there heart and treat you amazingly, it still doesn't mean there supposed to be in your life. And i have learned this over the past 4 months. I have also learned that you need to keep a very positive mind set and not trigger sad emotions. Me, being a girl, i have a very hard time with that. I tend to bring up all the good memories i have with a person when i think of them and it covers the fact that they are not the same person they were when we were making those memories. I probably would not be as positive as i am right now if it were not for my friends of course, but mostly for my family. The thing with friends is that if they leave and you don't see them in a year, or even six months you are completely different people and you have that whole awkward hi and wow you have changed so much and the two of you are not as close as you used to be and not as comfortable around each other. The thing with family is you could go that long with out seeing them and right when they get back you would still be family, still be comfortable, still act the same and that is why you should cherish your family soooo much and lean on them and God of course.

2 comments:

Fire_Escape said...

i love you. that's all i need to say.

Zac said...

That is true. Remember, everyone has the capacity to be a good person, and sometimes those friends who you haven't seen in a while have changed for the better. Never be afraid to give people a second chance. Although, the hard part is knowing how much a of a chance to give them.

I know that we are called to constantly forgive those in our lives, as our father forgives us. But where is the line? Is there no point where we should stop letting those into our lives who negativly affect us? Well, I guess Jesus did have dinner with Judas the night before.... what the heck is that suppose to mean?

I think it comes down to you knowing where you are in life. Right now, you and I are growing and maturing, and just like young plants - we are not yet ready for the worst of storms. But, there will come a time for that, and when it comes, we need to make sure our roots are deep.

So, what does this mean? I think it is wise for you to chose who affects you, especially now as you are growing and maturing - but dont set it as a rule of life. There will come a day when you will dine with your betrayer... "but not yet."

(quote from Gladiator)


-Zac